Freelance life is stressful.
There I said it.
Does it mean I’m going to turn away from it, give up on it? … Of course not, but I do feel like an order is very much needed.
I’m currently working on an actually very exciting project. It’s my own project, but none the less I’m excited. However, when you’re doing a self run project, you become project manager and boy, is that hurting my head. Not that I’m hating on the work load, I just wish it would all just calm down. If there’s one thing I’ve learnt from university, is that you are definitely in a safety bubble.
Once you leave, I hate to admit it, but that’s it. The big world is out there ready to throw all the challenges you were protected from, whilst at university. I’m a designer, and every project I’ve ever had to do, was managed by someone else. I was very much in charge of designing and sourcing the materials I needed and that was it. When it came to photoshoots, or the final production, that was left to the tutors to organise, or the facilities on campus. Alas, I don’t have a professional photo studio, nor a costume room where all the equipment is provided, or a tutor to give me a project to do.
You know, I’ve thrown myself into the deep end. I chose this freelance life, I chose to keep the part time job, and yet it’s very hard. I’m having to sacrifice on many things, like buying new bras, new clothes, makeup, going out socially – Don’t get me wrong, I do take time off, but I can’t just pop down into London to just…hang…anymore.
Truth be told, I’ve got to make myself known to the industry, to get the jobs I’d like to be doing. To do that, I’ve got to make the work, and to do that I’ve got to have a bit of money. It’s a never ending cycle.
I don’t just focus on my freelance though. I’ve got myself a personal trainer, and though that costs money, it means I keep in shape. Otherwise, my fitness (much as I love it – and that is true!) would be down the pan…the frying pan, and into the oven…where the cakes are a baking. In simpler terms… I’d be fat without my PT.
I guess I needed to just release some thoughts I was having….otherwise I think I would have broken down sooner or later. Now that I have done that, I’m going to switch off from my computer and work, and chill. I’ll do a bit of yoga and have a cup of tea…then head to bed.
Hopefully, in next’s blog post I’ll be discussing more about the project I’m working on… check my instagram for teasers.
Until next time,