So I’m back…I’m popular demand.
Okay, I haven’t actually been listening to Beyonce at all today (though there isn’t any hate towards her!) but it came to mind!
Anyways, I back with Diary of a Freelancer, and I’m thinking of making it into a blog series. Let me know what your thoughts are? I thought it’d be a good way for me to keep on track with what I’m doing…whilst also saying “hey guys, I do exist and I am working, I’m not hiding away, please give me a job…”
It’s been one heck of a week. This “Post Grad Depression” is real. I’m not depressed, but I am feeling the low of P.G.D. I didn’t really think it’d affect me, but boy, it has. I needed to get fabric from a place in London, and I had been putting it off all week. Whilst I kept justifying the reason for not going was “Oh my railcard has run out… oh weekends are cheaper…Oh I can carry on with work and get fabric later…” The main reason was because I knew it’d be hard.
I’ve spent the last 4 years commuting back and forth to London, and I can honestly say I am definitely a city girl. London is, well what I thought, was my home. However a house is not a home without family. And that was the hard hitting factor. My family, (my university friends and colleagues) have all gone back to their own homes, or moved onto different countries. Cringey as it sounds, it’s left a hole within me. I have never felt more welcomed and happy with a bunch of people who aren’t blood related.
This all being said, I am keeping myself busy. As mentioned in last weeks post, I am working on an exciting project. I’m happy that I’m doing this, because it distracts me from “the safe thoughts”. Which aren’t actually safe. For me, I am a Creative Producer, who specialises in Character Design. I’d like to become a successful one and I feel it in my gut, that everything I’m doing is right. Whilst I have doubt and I’m scared, I still feel like this is the right thing for me to be doing. Praying it blossoms into everything I’d like it to be.
I don’t want to sound like everything is going wrong, nor sound like everything is going swingingly and perfect. At the moment, I’m just starting out. So I’m afraid, but I don’t feel lost. I’m currently exploring different avenues and hoping to reach that dream destination soon.
I’ve been updating my Instagram with sneak peaks of what I’m working on, any ideas what it could be? I’m excited for the 12th November. That is an important date, which isn’t where I share what I’ve been working on, but it’s a day to be excited about, as shortly after you’ll get to see what I’ve been up to!
If you’re interested in collaborating with me, feel free to contact me and I’d love to chat more <3!
Until next week, I send my love to you all!