Diary of a Freelancer – New Beginnings, Entry 4.

Hello again!

Can I just squeal over the fact that OCTOBER IS HERE?! *Squeal!*ย Ahh, October. How I love thee.

No but seriously, I love October, and also December, but October definitely is my favourite month of the year. It’s because every year, it’s the start of some new bonding/re-bonding, fresh starts and another year of learning… Well… it was… now I’m a graduate…

That last part hits me hard. I’ll be honest, and I shan’t go on and on about it, but I’ve always known that I thrive off other people. I need a group/collective of people to surround myself with, as it gets my creativity and mind going. Alas, here I am in my own room working on a project…unsure as to how to meet new people.

I have been thinking about going a Netball team, or maybe even looking for a new job. Currently, I’m a freelancer (which I’d like to pursue with) but I also want to be around like minded people. That being said, I think I need to push on into the world of performance, or at least, be in the company of creative people. Whether they’re videographers or set designers, I need that sense of creativity in my life. Have I said creative a few too many times?

Speaking of creativity (I guess that’s word of the post today!), I mentioned last week how I’ve finished one costume out of four, and guess what… I’m nearly done with my second one! It’s going really well to be honest, I’m quite happy – I didn’t think I’d feel as in control of this project as much as I am, but I guess I’ve given myself a LOT of time to complete it. Hopefully it all works out and goes to plan!

I have to admit, I am glad I’m keeping myself busy. I am afraid, don’t get me wrong. Like, what comes to mind often is the same sentence probably a lot of people feel “What if this doesn’t work out? What if it goes wrong?” And though a little voice keeps saying this, I always give kudos to myself. Why? Well, if I don’t try, and I just allow this little voice to dictate how I push on in life, then I will always be thinking “But I have so many ideas… what if they’re that ONE idea?”

If you ever feel afraid of something, but you know deep down that if you don’t try, you’ll feel defeated, then go for it. Don’t ever look back in life thinking “What if I had made the plunge? What if it hadn’t gone wrong?” I look back on my university experience and I do regret the fact I let that little voice dictate decisions I made. As a freelancer, I won’t let myself go through feeling that way when I’m older…if I get to live that old!

Ohh, an exciting thing happened last week! I met up with some old uni friends, for one of their birthdays, and boy was it such a good day. My friend and I walked all around Central London and then headed to Zizi’s where we enjoyed a really nice LOOOOONG catch up. Once the meal was over, we waved our friend off on her train, and headed our separate ways. It was so nice to be back with my friends again. That’s what I need! I need people, like them, in my life! My target is to meet new people before the end of the year. Yeah, 3 months to go…it’s not a hard target, it’s achievable… *she says with high hopes!*

Anyways, I would love to connect with you guys on here! Please comment so we can get to know one another, I KNOW! Question of the post: What is your latest target?

Ciao for now!


Diary of a Freelancer – 1 out of 4… Entry 3.

Hello everyone!!

My head is pounding currently, but I do have my cup of Gingerbread Tea in my Pinocchio tea cup, so all is well!

Firstly, how are you? Are you all okay? I find that I jump straight into my post without even thinking to write and see how my readers (if any!) are doing. Do let me know what you’ve been up to and all that jazz – Oooh! Question of the day; What’s been the weirdest thing to happen to you last week? Mine would be where a grandmother figure nearly attacked another lady with her Zimmer frame. I know. I am not making this stuff up!

I have some exciting news for you… 1 out of 4 costumes COMPLETE! In said deadline time ๐Ÿ™Š!! I know, I’m genuinely proud of myself. Who would have thought I could stick to a time frame ๐Ÿ˜€ ANND no late nights. I’m really shocked.

Not only have I completed one costume…my fitness level has improved so suddenly! I’m able to run 3 miles/40 minutes in publicย withoutย stopping. I kid you not, this may not be a big deal to others, but 40 MINUTES WITHOUT STOPPING AT ALL! I’m really happy with myself.

I have to admit, now that I’ve completed one costume, I was very lost today as to which costume to start next. What was stopping me from just making a decision, was the fact that I have taken the measurements and fitted some of the costume onto one model, and I have another costume in which I have all of the measurements, but I need fit the costume on before I can push on with any work… so with that being said, the wisest move would be to work on the costume that I know I can work on. Why it has taken me all day to figure that one out, I couldn’t tell you… ๐Ÿ™ˆ

In other news, I have been searching for a venue that will allow me to do a photoshoot in, without costing a fortune. I think I have found the space, and for A REALLY REALLY good price too. I’ve just got to get a few more quotes, as ideally, I’d like a complete space where the team is completely alone, rather than hiring out a room in a building, where not only is le general public in, but that I may potentially end up disturbing a few people, which I really hate doing. Alas, the search is still on the go, but I’m hoping to get a venue booked by the end of this week.

A lot goes into project…I’ve realised. As mentioned before, I have become Project manager – and actually, it makes me realise that I do want to be a creative producer. I don’t like to use the term “Control freak” but I feel that I have a vision in mind, and an overall picture. I’m all up for getting a team of people together and pulling the best out in everyone, using their strengths and knowledge to help better the overall aesthetic. Actually, I’ve decided that I will do a separate post specifically for this paragraph.

For now, I’ll round off this post with, I’m feeling very good currently, and though there’s a LOT more work to be done, I’m happy to push through with it all. It’s tiring, and headachey, but all for a good cause…I feel!

Right, I must get back to planning, but until next time, CIAO CIAO!<3


Diary of a Freelancer Series

Hello everyone!

I’ve started a new series on my blog, which kind of happened naturally and now I’m doing the introduction post…ย the only way things seems to work for me. However, I have to admit, it feels much better that I’ve started doing this naturally, rather than writing the introduction post and then starting the series, as it wouldn’t be as I don’t think the content would have been as freely written otherwise.

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Diary of a Freelancer – Entry 1.

Freelance life is stressful.

There I said it.

Does it mean I’m going to turn away from it, give up on it? … Of course not, but I do feel like an order is very much needed.

I’m currently working on an actually very exciting project. It’s my own project, but none the less I’m excited. However, when you’re doing a self run project, you become project manager and boy, is that hurting my head. Not that I’m hating on the work load, I just wish it would all just calm down. If there’s one thing I’ve learnt from university, is that you are definitely in a safety bubble.

Once you leave, I hate to admit it, but that’s it. The big world is out there ready to throw all the challenges you were protected from, whilst at university. I’m a designer, and every project I’ve ever had to do, was managed by someone else. I was very much in charge of designing and sourcing the materials I needed and that was it. When it came to photoshoots, or the final production, that was left to the tutors to organise, or the facilities on campus. Alas, I don’t have a professional photo studio, nor a costume room where all the equipment is provided, or a tutor to give me a project to do.

You know, I’ve thrown myself into the deep end. I chose this freelance life, I chose to keep the part time job, and yet it’s very hard. I’m having to sacrifice on many things, like buying new bras, new clothes, makeup, going out socially – Don’t get me wrong, I do take time off, but I can’t just pop down into London to just…hang…anymore.

Truth be told, I’ve got to make myself known to the industry, to get the jobs I’d like to be doing. To do that, I’ve got to make the work, and to do that I’ve got to have a bit of money. ย It’s a never ending cycle.

I don’t just focus on my freelance though. I’ve got myself a personal trainer, and though that costs money, it means I keep in shape. Otherwise, my fitness (much as I love it – and that is true!) would be down the pan…the frying pan, and into the oven…where the cakes are a baking. In simpler terms… I’d be fat without my PT.

I guess I needed to just release some thoughts I was having….otherwise I think I would have broken down sooner or later. Now that I have done that, I’m going to switch off from my computer and work, and chill. I’ll do a bit of yoga and have a cup of tea…then head to bed.

Hopefully, in next’s blog post I’ll be discussing more about the project I’m working on… check my instagram for teasers.

Until next time,